You can have some pretty interesting conversations with kids as they can come up with some pretty interesting questions out of the blue.  Just such a conversation happened earlier this week with my oldest daughter.

During our little talk,  I asked her to imagine what would happen if an unbreakable chain was suddenly formed between the earth (presumably nearest the equator) and the moon.  Her little mind raced with different thoughts, none of them good for the planet earth, and we finally concluded that anyone who lived long enough to survive the catastrophic events in the immediate term would certainly be doomed within 10 hours as the coil of chain reeled in the moon until it collided with the planet.

"That could never really happen though," she informed me.  I smiled.  "That's what you call a thought experiment.  It makes things interesting and can lead you to think in different ways about the things around you."

She asked for another one, and so I asked her to imagine what it would be like to have a million dollars, but you couldn't spend any of it.

She talked about all the things she could buy with a million dollars, but I had to keep reminding her that she couldn't spend any of the money.  If she had a million dollars, but couldn't spend even one penny of it, how would her life be different than it was right now?  She puzzled it over, but she never could let go of the thought of actually having money you could not spend.  I reminded her again, that this too was only a thought experiment, and that the value of something that was never to be used was equal to the value of nothing at all.

I also told her that people who wish for a million dollars are not really wishing for a million dollars just to have a million dollars sitting around.  There is something they want to do with that million dollars; something they want to change about their life.  What they want to change is the real reason they want a million dollars, and they think having that money to spend will allow them to change something that they see as a problem in their life.

We talked some more, but my own mind began to wander.  As I listened to my daughter, I thought about all the things in the past that brought her into my life.  How many different scenarios could have played out, different choices with different outcomes, and that I would trade none of them with the moment I was sharing right then.  I look back on my own life, and I can see that by any standard I had it rough growing up.  Without getting into details, I can say there are very few people who would wish to trade places with me if they knew everything about how I grew up.

In my own little thought experiment, I sometimes wonder what if . . .

What if this had been different, what if that choice had been made instead, what if I went here instead of there, and on and on the "what ifs" go.  The reality is that I am here now because of all that has been.  As the conversation winds down, it occurs to me that it is not the "what ifs" in life that really matter.  Those "what if" moments in your past are like a million dollars you can never spend.

You cannot count on "what if" to change your life as it is right now, nor can you blame "what if" to change your past.  I look back and see that many people in similar circumstances in life never seemed to be able to break out beyond the thought experiment of "what if", as they continue to blame the past for everything that happens in their life today and in the future.

What matters now are not the "what ifs" of the past, but the concrete decisions you make to ensure real change moving forward from here.

With Valentine's Day approaching this week, much will be spent on flowers, chocolate, and small baubles as men of all ages seek to communicate in just the right way the simple words: "I love you".  February 14th is a day when some will even seek out the bonds of marriage, while some others may have chosen this day specifically to tie the proverbial knot.  As I watch this yearly phenomena, I wonder how much of it is sincere, how much of it is advertising coercion (buy this for her and she'll love you, or don't and you're a dead man!), and last of all, how long it will last.

That last question really bothers me.  I hope it bothers you, too.

How long does "I love you" last?

It reminds me of the joke where some married couple is arguing and the wife accuses her husband of never telling her "I love you" often enough.  At the end of the joke he finally ends the argument by saying, "I told you I love you the day we were married.  If anything changes, I'll let you know!"

The problem with a love that does not last is that it is a love based upon conditions.

Face it, we are taught to live a conditional life in a "do this for me and I'll do this for you" sort of way.  Most people I know wouldn't work at their jobs very long without a paycheck.  Even if they love what they are doing for a living, there has to be the condition of payment or else they could not continue to do that job indefinitely.  We walk out of stores with certain needs and wants in exchange for money.  We tend to treat others with varying degrees of trust that are earned.  Respect is also a two way street where our ability to respect someone can decrease rapidly with how well (or not) we feel respected or disrespected.  The list of conditions in all of our various interactions and relationships with others is quite long!

It seems life is full of conditional arrangements.  So then, it is quite a natural idea that how we love each other, even in marriage, would be conditional.  The act of divorce itself is proof enough of that.  If someone can answer the question "What would make you want a divorce?" then they have answered the condition(s) upon which their marriage would rest.  However, God wants Christians in marriage to love unconditionally.  Even though infidelity in marriage is listed as a possible reason for divorce, the act of divorce is still discouraged.

Why?

Because a Christian marriage is supposed to be a picture of God's love for us.

Does God love you conditionally or unconditionally?

For those of you reading this who have been through divorce yourself or know someone who has been through divorce and thinking of all the reasons why a divorce is justified, stop for a moment and think about the unconditional love of God for you.

I'm taking off work this Tuesday, January 22nd, 2013.  You see, my youngest daughter was born on January 22nd, and each year, with each of my daughters, I take them on a day-long father-daughter date.  Together we choose where to go, what to do, and I take them shopping for a new dress, a new book, and generally find different places to go and be so we can spend time together.

Watching her grow up, and learning about her as her personality develops is amazing.  With all her little quirks and playfulness, she captivates my heart every time I see her.  I love it when she comes into my office, crawls up into my lap, gives me a kiss on the cheek and says, "Papa, I love you."  I don't have any boys, though after watching some boys from other households and then looking at my experiences with my own two daughters, I believe I am much happier.

In the end though, I know I have the children God gave me.  In His infinite wisdom, God knew that these two little girls would bring perspectives and experiences into my life that I needed, and that they would change me into someone that they would need.  However, things did not have to be this way.

What I realized today, is that this Tuesday with my daughter quite possibly may never have even been a possibility.

You see, 40 years ago, on the same day my daughter would be born 40 years later, our country made the decision to make it legal for women to kill their unborn children.  According to nature and the way things work, the very next month after the Roe vs. Wade decision was handed down, my mother became pregnant with me.  She had a legal choice to make.  My life was in her hands.  Nine months later, on a cold November day, I was born into this world, and things were set in motion that would lead to my father-daughter date this coming Tuesday with one of the most beautiful of all of God's creations.  (Though I admit I am quite biased.)

It reminds me of a saying I heard somewhere that goes, "Just because you can do a thing, doesn't mean you should do a thing."  There is a lot of wisdom in those words.  Every choice you make has implications, and there are both the foreseen intended consequences, and the far reaching and mostly unseen and unintended consequences.

I suddenly realize, looking at my family and my two daughters, that had my mother made the legal choice to abort me, then the two wonderful little girls who are my children would not exist today.

Too often people are too quick and too eager to speak up for their rights, for their choices, and for their freedoms without understanding that with those rights, and choices, and freedoms comes responsibility for the outcomes, and consequences both intentional and the unintended.  As it turns out, Norma McCorvey, the woman whose personal life was used to argue the case of Roe vs. Wade, never had an abortion.  Her baby was born and adopted by another family.  Just two days ago, I saw a TV commercial where she openly acknowledges regret.

I believe if we were to all be open and honest, the conclusion could be made that the main reason abortions take place today are due to the personal inconvenience of life an "unwanted/unintended pregnancy" would represent.  Despite the myriad of social, medical, and economic factors, the truth is simply that the pregnancy is compartmentalized as "a problem" and abortion has been offered as an expedient and legal "solution" to that perceived problem.

I cannot say I do not understand that line of thinking.  My life was not easy growing up.  My family had it very hard economically.  I understand what it means to grow up poor.  My father left our family when I was 14 years old.  By all indications, the legal murder of my life would have been justified looking back on how hard and how tough life was not only for my mom and myself, but the other children in our family.  If my mom could look back on her life and see with 20/20 vision how much easier her life could have been without me being born, maybe she would have decided to end my life.  Furthermore, she may have chosen to end the lives of my two brothers that followed.

Yet, if my mother had only looked at her own personal circumstances and made a decision that was convenient for her, the unintended consequences of ending my life would be that my two daughters would not exist.

Abortion, as of this date, is legal; however, it is the legal killing of unborn children.

Just because you can do a thing, doesn't mean you should do a thing.

This Tuesday I get to go out on a date with my daughter.  Exactly 40 years after the killing of unborn children was made legal, I will celebrate another year of life with my own child.  As I look into my daughters eyes, I am very glad that just because my mom could do a thing, she didn't do a thing.